Do you know the difference between your son and the others' sons? You would criticize the others' sons when you heard that they changed their job like changing clothes. You would see most of the youngsters nowadays as fragile vases who couldn't bear much working pressure. But when your son is one of the vases, you are totally okay with that. You are capable of rationalizing it.
My dad encouraged me to quit my job. Perhaps he'd had enough listening to my whine during every dinner.
Do you know the difference between "I" and the others?
When I heard Amy changed her job after working for only two months in an event company, I thought I would never do this kind of things. Amy, what's wrong with you? I might work at least six months no matter what. (This might be a good example of fundamental attribution error.) However, recently I'm planning to quit my job. No, there's nothing wrong with me. I'm just guiding myself walking from a deviant path.
I have cognitive dissonance when I work under the system. I don't like to force children non-stop doing homework. I don't agree to punish children in order to stop them keep asking me questions. I don't like to rush the syllabus as my students are slow learners. I don't like to use the teaching materials that do not match with students' standard. I don't think we are fully responsible for students' grades. I don't believe academic achievement is everything.
There are many other small issues that urge me to resign, but I should stop whining or this post would be very long. Actually if I'm doing something I like, which doesn't make me feel "that's not right," I don't mind to work long hours with heavy workload. Anyway, it doesn't mean there's nothing good to work for my boss. However the good side are not good enough to compensate the less attractive side.
In short, I've decided to quit. You may look down on me, like how the others' father might do. If you know me well, you know I don't care anyway.
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Sunday, April 18, 2010
10 Week 16 - I'm Officially Graduated!
Convocation was tiring.
1. I had to wear formal, and even spent almost RM300 on it. Now I own a black suit and a dark blue tie which I have no idea when will I use them in future.
2. I didn't manage to see every people I wished to meet, although I tried to walk around to find them. I wished to take a photo with Fabio, Moon, Shanis, and Ray, however I failed to find them after the ceremony. I really feel bad for this.
3. There was no time for me to have deeper conversation with my friends. And the environment was not for doing so. We were too busy to attend to many people and things around us.
Convocation was fun.
1. Some people said I looked smart with my outfit.
2. Finally I have a photo taken with Ms. Winnee!
3. Lordson noticed that some of the graduands didn't smile when they came up to the stage. I said "It's because graduation means unemployment."
4. It was good to see many people again, and we were sharing the joy of graduation!
We are now heading toward our own direction. We're chasing our dream. I sincerely hope everyone can get what he/she really wants, and live happily with it.
1. I had to wear formal, and even spent almost RM300 on it. Now I own a black suit and a dark blue tie which I have no idea when will I use them in future.
2. I didn't manage to see every people I wished to meet, although I tried to walk around to find them. I wished to take a photo with Fabio, Moon, Shanis, and Ray, however I failed to find them after the ceremony. I really feel bad for this.
3. There was no time for me to have deeper conversation with my friends. And the environment was not for doing so. We were too busy to attend to many people and things around us.
Convocation was fun.
1. Some people said I looked smart with my outfit.
2. Finally I have a photo taken with Ms. Winnee!
3. Lordson noticed that some of the graduands didn't smile when they came up to the stage. I said "It's because graduation means unemployment."
4. It was good to see many people again, and we were sharing the joy of graduation!
We are now heading toward our own direction. We're chasing our dream. I sincerely hope everyone can get what he/she really wants, and live happily with it.
Sunday, April 11, 2010
10 Week 15 - Fantasy/Dream
Fantasy/DreamI was bisexual in the dream. I was into ShwuMey but she never knew it. HaiChiang was my best friend and he pursued her despite he knew how I felt about her. He thought I didn't know what had he done. However, ShwuMey had a new target, she told me she liked HonLim and she was going to get him. Even though she had just met him once on the street. I liked HonLim too, I thought to myself. The two persons I liked were going to be together? What had I left? HaiChiang came to me with a guilty face, I knew he wanted to confess. "I know you want to apologize. It's okay. Anyway, she isn't interested in you anymore," I said.
The dream was still vivid when I woke up, and I still remember it. I think this kind of drama would not happen in my life, but if I could experience once (it better be positive event, like someone suddenly holds me and then tries to kiss me and I slap the person and walk away), isn't it... fun?
Now you know why I always do projection :P
Company
I have never thought about owning a company. I clearly know that I have no ability to run a company alone, and I have no ambition to be a boss. Even though my family always encourage me to open a tuition center, they never raise my interest. However, when my friends mentioned a plan to run a company together, I was totally excited. I would love to be their partner and work with them!
I think working with my lovely friends would be one of the best things in my life. At least I think they would let me do whatever I believe it's good for the customers. I still miss the days that we all worked together for school assignments. I was trusted and we never had argument no matter what happened. We discussed things in a nice restaurant. Working with them was totally enjoyable.
So I do hope we can really run a company together in future. Is it possible?
Sunday, April 4, 2010
10 Week 14 - I Cherish
自从工作后，我无时无刻都在想念我的朋友。很希望放工后就能飞扑到他们的身边，跟他们围在一起说一堆废话，大大声无聊地笑。自从工作后，我觉得家真是舒服，懒洋洋地窝在沙发上看电视也能觉得好幸福。我一直以来都拥有的这些，原来都这么美好。原来我老早已经活在极度的幸福中了，自己还懵然追求更奢侈的幸福。
我的工作其实不辛苦，而且还非常轻松。老板和同事也对我很好。但不知道为什么，每当一下班心里就有无形的重量，有点吃力地挑着看不见的担子。工作的第一晚，我去练习钢琴，练习过后发现心里的重量已经不见了。大概是在我练习钢琴的时候不经不觉地被吸进音乐的隙缝里了。工作的第二晚，我带着那股重新形成的压力去上钢琴课。压力也经过了钢琴课后被释放了。第三晚跟网友聊天、第四晚看电视节目，而第五晚跟朋友MSN。总而言之，要做一些事情才能让自己轻松起来。为什么会有这种压力呢？到底是什么压力呢？我不知道。
而且每一天我都有一点抗拒去上班。上班前都尽量把时间拖到最后才懒懒地上车（反正才5分钟车程）。不过还好一抵达门口心情就顿时调整过来了，又能轻轻松松地进去。我在想是不是因为我还很怀念上学的生活。我之前以为我已经找到了最适合自己的工作后，就会每一天都过得很开心，但原来即使工作很好老板很好同事很好做的是自己能力所及的事，结果我的心里还有个漩涡状滑不留丢的小洞口。我知道我不属于那里。但无论如何，我还要继续做下去，在离开前我至少要找到某个意义。
昨晚我在阳台拍夜景。很早之前就希望可以把街灯拍出星芒的效果。在这里跟大家分享一下。
如果看不清楚，我想应该可以按图放大的。那么下一次，就要去Putrajaya拍星芒的街灯咯。
我的工作其实不辛苦，而且还非常轻松。老板和同事也对我很好。但不知道为什么，每当一下班心里就有无形的重量，有点吃力地挑着看不见的担子。工作的第一晚，我去练习钢琴，练习过后发现心里的重量已经不见了。大概是在我练习钢琴的时候不经不觉地被吸进音乐的隙缝里了。工作的第二晚，我带着那股重新形成的压力去上钢琴课。压力也经过了钢琴课后被释放了。第三晚跟网友聊天、第四晚看电视节目，而第五晚跟朋友MSN。总而言之，要做一些事情才能让自己轻松起来。为什么会有这种压力呢？到底是什么压力呢？我不知道。
而且每一天我都有一点抗拒去上班。上班前都尽量把时间拖到最后才懒懒地上车（反正才5分钟车程）。不过还好一抵达门口心情就顿时调整过来了，又能轻轻松松地进去。我在想是不是因为我还很怀念上学的生活。我之前以为我已经找到了最适合自己的工作后，就会每一天都过得很开心，但原来即使工作很好老板很好同事很好做的是自己能力所及的事，结果我的心里还有个漩涡状滑不留丢的小洞口。我知道我不属于那里。但无论如何，我还要继续做下去，在离开前我至少要找到某个意义。
昨晚我在阳台拍夜景。很早之前就希望可以把街灯拍出星芒的效果。在这里跟大家分享一下。
如果看不清楚，我想应该可以按图放大的。那么下一次，就要去Putrajaya拍星芒的街灯咯。
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